The School Of Whatever Works, Weird Unicorns, Winning Bets, My Son Meeting My Dad (kinda)
So much! ALLOW on 4/20. It's virtual, magic, life-changing, & full of like-minded loving weirdos. It's accessible, no matter if you can afford it or not. Oh, and Ojai retreat 5/24-27 retreat!
What evidence are you looking for in your life?
Pause and ponder.
I ask myself this. A lot. Not so much for the answers but so that the question lives in me, with intentionality. I do my best to stay conscious of what evidence I’m looking to find in my life. If I notice, for example, that I’m looking for conformation that I suck, or that I will never have it (whatever it is), or that there isn’t enough- I take a breath, let it out, and begin again.
I realign.
Lately, I’ve been looking for evidence of abundance, magic in the mundane, possibility, and that the universe has a sense of humor.
I’ve been finding it.
BUT FIRST: ADHD does this thing. It’s where I don’t realize where I am in time. I stopped hiding my ADHD because I (do my best to) practice Shame Loss.
I don’t think time is real- nonetheless, we live in the world and I have a mortgage and a son who is supposed to be at school at 8 a.m. Lol lol. (As if.)
Me: how did it get to be April? Oops I forgot to promote ALLOW because I still haven’t figured out how time works and Sundays become Mondays and people die and purple exists in the world.
As Gay Hendricks says: I am the source of time. I am where time comes from.
So, I put down Despair/Panic and step into radical honesty, abundance, community, and mostly, the knowing that I’m supported. As are you.
The art of asking and receiving are ones worth getting good at.
How you can support me (I SURE COULD USE IT) while I make it to the “finish” line with this book, sort out my divorce (fucckkkk), care for my son, still be the breadwinner (!) lead my retreat to Ojai May 24-27, and virtual workshop April 20th:
REMIND ME THAT I CAN DO THIS.
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I got you never fails.
SIGNS
(Not the movie by the guy who made The Sixth Sense)
In London, I met a man in the elevator at our hotel who argued with me about the time difference between London and Chicago. I was VERY sure of the time differences because I Facetimed Charlie every day in LA.
Wanna bet?
We bet a hundred bucks. Elevator doors closed.
I awoke the next morning with an old sense of fear and lack. I panicked. How would I come up with all the money I had to come up with? (Don’t ask, just trust me, I do. A looooot.)
I jumped out of bed and danced around our room, filled with my paint supplies and towels so as not to stain the carpet. (I didn’t! I deserve a medal!)
I sang I am calling it in! Financial freedom! Money comes easily and frequently. I opened our 7th floor window (never seen a hotel room window open!) and yelled You hear me, London? I am calling in financial abundance!
We leave the hotel and there it is. A crisp American $50 dollar bill on the sidewalk.
Without batting an eyelash, I pick it up, turn to Henry and say See? I called it in.
After brunch, we get to the hotel and a man stares at me.
The rest is after the pay wall and you DO NOT want to miss the magic of this one. It’s just beyond.
You owe me a hundred bucks, don’t you?
The rest below is behind a paywall and I swear you won’t want to miss it. It’s magic. Plain and simple. Love, me
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