What are you simply 'putting up with' in your life? Also: 'The Hill Of It's Never Too Late' is a good one to die on, my name's NOT Sarah, what to ask yourself to check that you're doing alright.
Gosh, Jen, you are an inspiration. I don’t tolerate the voice of the Inner Asshole, the one that told me I’m not allowed to be a writer. I’ve gone ALL IN, and I will see you in LA in October, by which time I will have finished the second draft of a memoir of psychiatric hospitalization when I was 33-35. And the IA will not stop me, because I’m already outlining a second book I’m excited about. (ALLOW workshops FTW!) And I’ve been going crazy as a photographer since I left Portland and moved to the Oregon coast, another thing that I was discouraged against pursuing when I was younger, and I love it. I take 100s of photos a day. I’ve started printing some of my work as mindful greeting cards especially for my sober friends. I relate to your need to paint. Becoming a greeting card publisher—who knew? Good luck with everything on your plate, take care, and see you soon. xoxo
You crack me up and I needed to be cracked up. What am I tolerating?
I not tolerating but I HEAR the inner asshole collecting chips. I thank it for sharing and tell it to shut the f*ck up. )I too am inconsistent with my fucks) Anyway, I love you and all the painting. You do hear so acutely I can feel you all the way in Denver. Xo
Perhaps 5 1/2 or so years ago now she came on my radar- not even sure how, but I was in a bad car accident & didn’t think I’d ever make it out of bed much less back to my profession. I had memory issues, & lots of other stuff going on besides my physical issues.
So I was feeling pretty hopeless, in pain and pretty much reeling- like “who was I without my identities of helper/healer/savior? Ugh.
And I found Jenn. 😃 She gave me Hope. She was So Real, So Human. So Kind. So Funny. Then- I followed or found her on the app formerly known as “MINE’d” and signed on for everything Jenn- “Allow” online workshops and others…even did one in person a year ago last October in North Carolina.
Still want to go to Italy or see her at Omega or Ojai. Soon. 😊
That’s beautiful. She is an amazing human being and changed my life in 2016 so, change maker. Connector. Yeah, I’ve been wanting to go to Italy or France but probably not gonna happen. I hope she offers something at Ojai around the same time AWP is in LA next year. Ojai is wonderful.
Oh, and how could I Forget🤦♀️”Shameloss.” There was A lot I needed to work through with this.
And the Poetry Group I was (am still) a part of thru Jenn witnessed me thru a lot of shame unloading I did prior to somewhat unexpectedly losing my mom 2 years ago. And then when she died they witnessed that too.
So yes- She has been a catalyst for healing and beauty and possibility for me.
I couldn’t write this in your other post because it was for paying subscribers, which I am not, but I felt I needed to share: if you have Deja-vu’s it means you are on the right track and making your markers. So if you have a lot of them, good job! You are right where you are supposed to be. (At least that is how I approach them)
Hi Jenn!! Have missed your words & energy!!! Reading you here, feeling your Energy- All Smiles for Me!!☺️
You are one of the very first to get me to think ‘maybe, possibly, I could go ahead & write if I loved it!’ just because I did & that’s reason enough!
Who spurred me to think -Maybe I “Get To”: pursue my own happiness, believe I can, believe I could; who intro’d me to practice letting ‘myself off the hook,’ & “beauty hunting,” and “may I remember,” & so so much more.
So. I Really wish I could list a bunch of shit I am No. Longer. Tolerating.😂
However-The fact that I cannot; that I Am Not clamoring to create some none sense that will …?mAke me feel better &/or get a ‘atta girl’ from you is …
Perhaps 🤔 ‘the thing itself’ If there is a thing!?
(Becuz it seems to me I find myself still ‘tolerating’ plenty id rather Not.)
Though-sure, I can & do twist this up & narrate myself out of ‘victim mode’ as much as I can- there remains for me some prisoner’s dilemmas as it were. (So much easier to separate oneself from an adult’s actions when they are not twisted up with a child’s well-being).
But back to how I’m not going to pretend to you what a bang up job I’m doing with my boundaries. (Read: They are Still Under Heavy Construction)🤪
I offer up this:
I am No longer tolerating lying to my own damn self (when aware of it Anyway).🤷♀️
Which feels like something. Progress perhaps?
That the pretending to myself at least has stopped.
And this:
That I “Get To”🙌😉 Be human,
re-visit old patterns (guess there’s still more to learn?);
& stop treating myself like some video game avitar from a land of continuous leveling up;
when to be human is more like a visit to an amusement park- one filled with spirals, zigzags, roller-coaster belly-drops, & upside down extremes.
Gosh, Jen, you are an inspiration. I don’t tolerate the voice of the Inner Asshole, the one that told me I’m not allowed to be a writer. I’ve gone ALL IN, and I will see you in LA in October, by which time I will have finished the second draft of a memoir of psychiatric hospitalization when I was 33-35. And the IA will not stop me, because I’m already outlining a second book I’m excited about. (ALLOW workshops FTW!) And I’ve been going crazy as a photographer since I left Portland and moved to the Oregon coast, another thing that I was discouraged against pursuing when I was younger, and I love it. I take 100s of photos a day. I’ve started printing some of my work as mindful greeting cards especially for my sober friends. I relate to your need to paint. Becoming a greeting card publisher—who knew? Good luck with everything on your plate, take care, and see you soon. xoxo
How inspiring!!!
Haaaaaa shut up Yoda!
You crack me up and I needed to be cracked up. What am I tolerating?
I not tolerating but I HEAR the inner asshole collecting chips. I thank it for sharing and tell it to shut the f*ck up. )I too am inconsistent with my fucks) Anyway, I love you and all the painting. You do hear so acutely I can feel you all the way in Denver. Xo
Hi Kelly!!!🥰
Ooh do you know @Jen Pastiloff, Colleen?
I do!! Yes!!!
Perhaps 5 1/2 or so years ago now she came on my radar- not even sure how, but I was in a bad car accident & didn’t think I’d ever make it out of bed much less back to my profession. I had memory issues, & lots of other stuff going on besides my physical issues.
So I was feeling pretty hopeless, in pain and pretty much reeling- like “who was I without my identities of helper/healer/savior? Ugh.
And I found Jenn. 😃 She gave me Hope. She was So Real, So Human. So Kind. So Funny. Then- I followed or found her on the app formerly known as “MINE’d” and signed on for everything Jenn- “Allow” online workshops and others…even did one in person a year ago last October in North Carolina.
Still want to go to Italy or see her at Omega or Ojai. Soon. 😊
That’s beautiful. She is an amazing human being and changed my life in 2016 so, change maker. Connector. Yeah, I’ve been wanting to go to Italy or France but probably not gonna happen. I hope she offers something at Ojai around the same time AWP is in LA next year. Ojai is wonderful.
I should know AWP but …? Also, I have no business saying I’m going to Italy or Ojai soon😂 but I like to speak my desires 😉😃
Oh, and how could I Forget🤦♀️”Shameloss.” There was A lot I needed to work through with this.
And the Poetry Group I was (am still) a part of thru Jenn witnessed me thru a lot of shame unloading I did prior to somewhat unexpectedly losing my mom 2 years ago. And then when she died they witnessed that too.
So yes- She has been a catalyst for healing and beauty and possibility for me.
I couldn’t write this in your other post because it was for paying subscribers, which I am not, but I felt I needed to share: if you have Deja-vu’s it means you are on the right track and making your markers. So if you have a lot of them, good job! You are right where you are supposed to be. (At least that is how I approach them)
Hi Jenn!! Have missed your words & energy!!! Reading you here, feeling your Energy- All Smiles for Me!!☺️
You are one of the very first to get me to think ‘maybe, possibly, I could go ahead & write if I loved it!’ just because I did & that’s reason enough!
Who spurred me to think -Maybe I “Get To”: pursue my own happiness, believe I can, believe I could; who intro’d me to practice letting ‘myself off the hook,’ & “beauty hunting,” and “may I remember,” & so so much more.
So. I Really wish I could list a bunch of shit I am No. Longer. Tolerating.😂
However-The fact that I cannot; that I Am Not clamoring to create some none sense that will …?mAke me feel better &/or get a ‘atta girl’ from you is …
Perhaps 🤔 ‘the thing itself’ If there is a thing!?
(Becuz it seems to me I find myself still ‘tolerating’ plenty id rather Not.)
Though-sure, I can & do twist this up & narrate myself out of ‘victim mode’ as much as I can- there remains for me some prisoner’s dilemmas as it were. (So much easier to separate oneself from an adult’s actions when they are not twisted up with a child’s well-being).
But back to how I’m not going to pretend to you what a bang up job I’m doing with my boundaries. (Read: They are Still Under Heavy Construction)🤪
I offer up this:
I am No longer tolerating lying to my own damn self (when aware of it Anyway).🤷♀️
Which feels like something. Progress perhaps?
That the pretending to myself at least has stopped.
And this:
That I “Get To”🙌😉 Be human,
re-visit old patterns (guess there’s still more to learn?);
& stop treating myself like some video game avitar from a land of continuous leveling up;
when to be human is more like a visit to an amusement park- one filled with spirals, zigzags, roller-coaster belly-drops, & upside down extremes.
Anyway, enough of this silly metaphor.
I’m here. You’re here. Yay!!! Kelly’s here!!!
Miss you!!! You inspire me!!! Love you!!!